The last year or so starting at the beginning...

I don't know why, but I feel really strongly that I need to write out all the joys and trials of our last year in blog form. I think partly for me to be able to go back and read it later, but also for those that love us to know all the details that are sometimes are to talk about.

First I need to start with January of last year when our sweet little Eli joined our family. It was amazing how throughout my entire pregnancy I felt great and so connected to this little spirit I had not yet met. I found it so amazing that with both my children they had personality even from the womb. I won't go into tons of detail but I was so grateful for the amazingly spiritual experience it was to give birth to him. Having had lots of complications and then a c-section with Jonah I felt so robbed not seeing him until he was 3 hours old, that I was determined to do things on my own terms. What a blessing it was to have it the way I did. I feel like both of my precious boys have healed me in different ways. With Eli it was finding peace inside myself to take control of my life and my choices. I feel like I was at a turning point and I felt so liberated being able to trust in myself and my own capabilities as well as truly putting myself in the hands of my Heavenly Father.